Well I have to admit that I am actually looking forward to getting myself back into my studies to be completely honest. The experience that I have gained for that short space in time I really did enjoy it and I have had an interesting ride on the study train, but I actually cant wait to start again I know its going to be a vast variety of emotions and feelings that I will feel along the way, but I think that I am ready for it for sure…

My close-net family including the few people I can actually call a “friend” will know where I am coming from, and also what I am about to ask you all,but for all the possibilities out there, I would advise you to go and get get some popcorn or something to munch on while you read this and do not forget to get yourself comfortable, because I am going to be telling you a little story about little old me.

I am still to this day trying to sort out my student finance for this year so that I’m able to actually get it all sorted now and ready for when the actual day arrives and I begin my studies again. My personal goal especially for my degree is that I am going to be getting this done and have that special opportunity to go onto graduate with a degree that I do hope will get me where I need to be in life and that’s to become a solicitor working within the criminal investigations and all that good stuff, mainly because I like all things that crime based! I am a big, well no I’m a HUGE!!! Fan of such programs as the following

Now once you have read it all and got to know a little something about me I will say that I have already prepared myself for all the mixed emotions that you may or may not have, but I will leave you with this. If you have any questions that you would like to ask me then you are more than welcome to ask me (depending of course on what question you will ask me. I did say that I was an open book, but some things I will keep to myself)

  • Stark Trek: The Next Generation
  • Star Trek: Voyager {Love Captain Janeway – Kate Mulgrew}
  • Seven of Nine – Jeri Ryan

I do have other programs that I like to watch, but honestly I can’t remember the names of them so I’m just going to stick with the ones that I have mentioned for now, but if I do remember the others then I’ll add them to the next post lol

Do you have a 5 year life plan for yourself?? The only main reason I ask you all this is mainly to see what answers you leave in the comments below. I will admit that I keep on changing mine like all the time, but I wanna stick to one thing and see it all the way through to the end and finally make something of myself in this world we call the United Kingdom. I have changed my mind on what or where I could see myself. When I was younger and in my teens I wanted to study to become a nurse working with children for a few years and then move to more challenging things like working in Accident and Emergency as there I’ll be confronted with various things that I would need to deal with etc…. but then while I was doing my NVQ Level 2 in childcare the head of the college that I was going to decided to tell me on numerous occasions that I would never achieve the goal I set myself, I would never graduate nor qualify to become a nurse, so me who deals with anxiety and major depression issues is not a way to speak to me, and the last thing that I remember was that I dashed my big leaver arch folder that was filled with all my course work that I’ve been doing since I started the bloody thing, and I just grabbed my stuff and left the building and didn’t return. But before I did leave I made sure that I call her all the names that I could think of at the time to call her. I couldn’t find the link as to why she felt the need to discriminate against me and mark me out to be a failure in life. I have failed in a lot of things and I actually thought that I’d be happy and do what I knew I wanted to do even before I got to where I am today. I will admit mind I do have a National Vocational Qualification (NVQ) Level 1 Certificate in IT which I am happy with. I even went to another college when I was about 20/21 I think because yet again I changed my mind and this time I wanted to train to become a flight attendant working for an airline. I will say this for a laugh I finished the course because it was only for a year so that was cool! I even applied to Easy Jet as they were recruiting for cabin crew at Gatwick Airport, which I didn’t get because I fucked up the English and Maths test that they had, and I will admit that it knocked my confidence out of sync and I didn’t have the same mind set to do that career. Now I’m doing my law Degree with the Open University. I passed the first year which I was really happy about, but after that my mental health took a beating and I decided to drop out not just once but twice and that was back 2017. We are now in 2019 and I’m about to begin my second year and I’m looking forward to getting stuck in and beating it down with something legal. But I’ve still gotta sort out my student finance loan application because the site has been playing up and it’s been winding me up big time, I’ve had to get in contact with them about the issues and I’ve been taken around the houses with different people telling me different information. But we shall see what happens tomorrow or even next week when I try to finish off my bloody loan application. But till then my darlings I shall see you on the flip side 💋💋💋