22nd April 2009! I Didn’t Think I Would Make It If You Wasn’t With Me
I will say that I have had some rocky stages throughout my life that I can never take back, and honestly I have only myself to blame for my own actions and if my sister and my other family members were around me now they would tell me that I would need to speak to someone i.e the doctors about this whole thing, but honestly like their is so much, so many times that I can go to the doctors to seek out professional help because I have done it so many times now that I tend to find it hard for me to even pick up the phone to ring them. But I know that I have got to do it at some point, but to be quite honest I just choose not to do it an just deal with whatever problems come my way.
I’m so glad that my sister and I have disrespected in more way than one and that is another opportunity for me to do a post, just know this I love this fantastic lady with all my heart. The god would not know me inside and out like I this girl!! But this day that I’ve never been able to forget when my whole life, or the life that I thought I knew would be gone in an instant. and if she was not with me, I would not be on this planet BELIEVE!
Is This Real Or Am I Asleep
I was told I was HIV positive and honest to GOD! If she was not their that day I would not be on this earth and trust me when I tell you, that I am serious with what I am saying. I wouldn’t be here and I have to thank her from the bottom of my heart! I feel so alone right now it hurts, but the thing about it is that I don’t want to say anything to anyone, for the main reason is that I tend to bottle up a lot of my emotions and my feelings when its comes down to and I have done since the beginning of time. I have spoken to the professionals about what is going on with me inside my head, how I have suicidal tenancies that I sometimes, can never control.